My life sucks in so many ways. Up and down, mostly down, it’s taking its toll on me. Not to mention the people who are around me putting up with what i do. … As much as i dislike me, being on the receiving end has got to be rotten.
So, what to do. I’ve got a screwed up body that hurts and doesn’t work right plus, a bipolar brain and multiple personality disorder. It’s actually the brain that comes first on the hit parade. Maybe it’s actually a tie. My default is to do absolutely nothing.I do that pretty well, nothing that is.
I do good pity parties too. If it weren’t for them my life wouldn’t have much entertainment at all. I’m sick. I’m tired. I used to have suicidal ideations but it takes to much to think about it, let alone act on any of that shit. I hurt too much as it is.